Come and Go and All Alone

Lately I've been deeply saddened when reflecting on how quickly and easily friends come and go. People I thought I was "close to" just don't show up anymore. I move away from college and friendships fall away completely. I'm sad to look back on wedding photos and see faces I haven't seen in years! I'm sad that one of my bridesmaid actually had a baby and I only heard one thing about it - "can you come to my baby shower?" And that's after I contacted her several times without any response from her! I just feel like, can you get close to ANYONE without being hurt? Who has close friendships? Can you tell me what I'm doing wrong? I've even verbally expressed my deep commitment to a friend... and then she announced to me that she and her husband were moving out of town through a TEXT MESSAGE. I just don't understand. Who wants to commit with me? Who wants to be serious about living life together? Who wants to know the ins and outs of me (maybe that's the issue right there) and be known too? Who wants to NOT be surprised that I'd call them first to make a big announcement?

I feel so alone. I don't even think there are more than 2 people in this world that I'd consider myself "close" with (and it's true - one of them I don't talk to much but sincerely adore [Jenn!]). I feel like there are 2 people who actually know me and still stick around.

I thought this is what EVERYONE longed for. Am I really that abnormal?